Monday, June 26, 2006

Next Level Radio...and Merz


I am trying to keep my faith vibrant, despite some really tough hardships that my dearest friends are going through right now. But sometimes it is personally difficult to get the energy and laughter back so easily. My kids are always a source of inspiration, and for that I am utterly grateful.

I recently came across two things that I wanted to share that helped calm my soul and was a source of inspiration.

If you have 3 segments of 30 minutes available, please fill them up at least one of them by listening to one of 3 podcasts from www.nextlevelradio.org. This new podcast now with its 3rd broadcast now availabe, is brought to you by a one of my favorite people, Will Morrison the 7th. He is utterly unique, humble, kind and the most genuine type of guy (a son of a blacksmith, Computer geek AND a DJ..need I say more?).

Through his Pod cast, he is finding new ways to share developments on musicians, rappers, poets and rock bands who all have a positive world embracing message. Listening to Will and his interviews, selections of music and dialogue around spirituality and art is a true inspiration. Not only for me, but for other start-up artists who are wondering if their message counts. I hope Will keeps on broadcasting, I can't wait for number 4.

On the same note, I also re-discovered music that I am swept up into and have listened and re-listened over the past few weeks. Merz, led by a Bahai named Conrad Lambert is an artist that I cannot get enough of. His latest LP Silvertree which is available on ITUNES is soulful, absolutely intoxicating and melts my heart. Especially Dangerous Heady Love Scheme. He is amazing, just amazing. (by the way, the band Coldplay thinks so too! check out their review on his site at www.merz.co.uk)

Enjoy, and one other bit of news, little Max laughed today... some of the best news I have heard in a while.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Eternal hope.

I have a wonderful friend Samira,a beaming light like few others. She is joyful, energetic, deepened in her Faith, spiritual to the core and so fun to be with. I went to college with her and have known her since I was a teenager. She is the one who would accompany me to Chi Chi's to chat and eat chips when it was too tiring to study. We talked on endless nights about friendship, family, faith, guys, ideas of joy, of suffering...and we absolutely get each other, in an easy, no need to explain fashion. We also LOVED dancing to the Cure (Close to Me...)

Today I heard a story about her which brought me to tears because of the heartwrenching events that have unfolded in her life in the past week.

On a normal day, Samira, who is 8 months pregant, brought her 2 year old daughter home and unfastens her from the car seat to bring her daughter into her house. After she comes back outside she reaches to get her purse from inside the car, and the car starts to roll back while in park mode.

Samira was dragged down the hill with the car, and then was severely injured by the car as she had fallen and the car had ran her over. (!!!!, my mind cannot fully comprehend this last fact even now) With crushed ribs and collapsed lungs and many other internal injuries, she decided at that moment, laying on the street by her house, that if she didnt get up, that she would not survive. She some how got the superhuman strength to actually get to her neighbor's house and ring the bell.

After ringing the door bell of the neighbor, she asked them to keep an eye on her daughter...and to call 911. She was flown in a helicopter to the hospital.

Not only is she alive, but a miracle that she is and her new son is alive. Her baby was saved, despite a second by second life threatening operating procedure. The nurses, even with 23 years of experience called it a miracle baby and a miracle mom.

The little boy Ellis is now stronger and healthier than anyone could ever have anticipated, despite his first moments of life without any breath. Samira is in ICU, but is slowly getting a prognosis that seems to be a good one. The doctors, nurses, everyone, everywhere people are amazed, they are astonished at her miraculous survival and of her baby.

...Today after I heard the details of the accident, I couldnt help but to just cry, with both tears of joy that they are okay but also in a surreal sense of "Oh My God" my dearest friends are really suffering. First little Max, and now this incredulous event of Samira and her new baby boy. What do I do with this information? How do I compute this data into my life? These are people who are pushing beyond their means, they are absolutely courageous and treading on a path which tests their resolve, their life force and their ability to face life in the darkest hours. It makes me think of who we are, and the smallness of our lives.

A single moment can change our lives and shock us out of our limited sense of reality in a heartbeat.

I extend my deepest love, prayers and hope to my friends who are suffering beyond my worst nightmares as their events unfold before their eyes. But I still believe that they continue this fight because it is not yet over. Some how we are given these trials but I refuse to believe that we are alone. We are never left alone and even though the wisdom of the suffering may not be clear to us now, we have to trust, have faith, grab hold to our sense of reality and shift and move in the direction flexibily enough so we can somehow God willing, emerge wiser, stronger and maybe even victorious.

"O My servants! Sorrow not if, in these days and on this earthly plane, things contrary to your wishes have been ordained and manifested by God, for days of blissful joy, of heavenly delight, are assuredly in store for you. Worlds, holy and spiritually glorious, will be unveiled to your eyes. You are destined by Him, in this world and hereafter, to partake of their benefits, to share in their joys, and to obtain a portion of their sustaining grace."

-Bahá'u'lláh

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Fate of a child


The last several days I have not really thought too much about blogging. Instead I have been pondering, praying, hoping, wondering, frustrated, confused, detached and then calm...

A few days after my 11th year anniversary I heard horrible news that one of our dearest friend's son, who is 4 and a half years young is suffering from Stevens Johnson syndrome and T.E.N., Toxic Epidermal Necrolysis. The origin of how he got this is unclear, but the reality of this disease or condition is absolutely real. This wonderful child is in an intensive care burn unit in a very famous hospital in NY city, somewhere on the 8th floor, with many doctors, specialists and experts at this child's side. Incredibly, as this child goes through infections, sloughing of the skin, transfusions, and process after process, he is subjected to every kind of sophisticated treatment available in the world today; but no one knows how or what this will do, except that they hope for the best.

I watch as the parents listen, in a profoundly patient manner, the diagnosis, the possible prognosis and what is happening from skin to skin to their child. The parents themselves are medical doctors knowing exactly how or what the "experts" tell them, and they know the most significant truth...that there is no sure answer.

Moment by moment, more experts come by and offer their prayers, support and assistance while they try to unravel the mysteries that this condition has wrapped this child in. Despite all strides in medical science, many conditions such as the one here are unclear, mysterious and without a definite treatment. So what comfort can the parents have in the medical realm, where the best medical training in the country does not equip them for this trial?

The parents...our friends, are the kind of friends we consider as family, the kind that we love and wish for their happiness forever...despite time, distance or growth in this world. So strange that we used to double date before they were married, for dinners, movies, walks in NY city. These are the same people who almost forever ago from now, Pieter and I witnessed buying their engagement ring. The same people we encouraged to have their wedding in Central Park (they did...)

It seems so surreal. Now years later, the only important thing is their child's health; and keeping it together, especially for the sake of themselvers and for their daughter who is the same age as Alec.

I have been praying a lot, having a difficult time in focusing on my day to day frentic paced life while I think about this child born into this marriage that we witnessed as he is waiting for his fate. So many friends, family, strangers, old and young, even those who do not believe are praying so hard for this child. Everyone I know who knows about this has been taken swept up in this plight, hoping that all goes well, praying that despite all odds that he will in fact pull through.

So my blogging stuff has slowed down since I am waiting at this edge for news of his recovery, developments and condition. I only went to the hospital twice thus far, but really wish I could just stay there and support our friends Muni and John. Just to be there for a 24/7 hug, whenever needed anytime. I am wishing that Red Envelope has the gift that has unending Hope in a box, one that can encourage us in our deepest suffering and uplift us into knowing that everything WILL be all right.

For anyone out there, until that special Box arrives, please offer prayers of strength, courage, hope, love and healing.

So Max, my prayers will be with you tonight, dear little one, keep your strength up and continue your fight. We are all eagerly cheering you on...

Thursday, June 01, 2006

NY Times article on persecutions of Bahá'ís

Describing the latest arrests (see below Youth Persecution In Iran?) as the largest mass arrest since the 1980's, this article presents an overview of the alarming activities recently taking place in Iran on the persecution of the Bahá'ís.

Check out the link to the article written by Laurie Goodstein http://www.nytimes.com/2006/06/01/world/middleeast/01bahai.html?_r=1&oref=slogin

As Iran continues to move the pendulum towards and away from nuclear threats, I cannot help to speculate what their agenda is, how far they will go and whether they are or even believe that they are unstoppable...